CHAPTER 15
HEAVENLY
CONTEMPLATION ASSISTED BY SENSIBLE OBJECTS, AND GUARDED AGAINST A TREACHEROUS
HEART.
It is difficult to maintain a lively impression of heavenly
things: therefore, I. Heavenly contemplation may be assisted by sensible
objects; 1. If we draw strong suppositions from sense; and 2. If we compare the
objects of sense with the objects of faith. II. Heavenly contemplation may also
be guarded against a treacherous heart, by considering, 1. The great
backwardness of the heart to this duty; 2. Its trifling in it; 3. Its wandering
from it; and, 4. Its too abruptly putting an end to it.
The most difficult part of heavenly contemplation is, to
maintain a lively sense of heavenly things upon our hearts. It is easier merely
to think of heaven a whole day, than to be lively and affectionate in those
thoughts a quarter of an hour. Faith is imperfect--for we are renewed but in
part--and goes against a world of resistance; and, being supernatural, is prone
to decline and languish, unless it be continually excited. Sense is strong
according to the strength of the flesh; and, being natural, continues while
nature continues. The objects of faith are far off; but those of sense are
nigh. We must go as far as heaven for our joys. To rejoice in what we never
saw, nor ever knew the man that did see, and this upon a mere promise of the
Bible, is not so easy as to rejoice in what we see and possess. It must,
therefore, be a point of spiritual prudence, to call in sense to the assistance
of faith. It will be a good work, if we can make friends of these usual
enemies, and make them instruments for raising us to God, which are so often
the means of drawing us from him. Why hath God given us either our senses or
their common objects, if they might not be serviceable to his praise? Why doth
the Holy Spirit describe the glory of the New Jerusalem in expressions that are
even grateful to the flesh? Is it that we might think heaven to be made of gold
and pearl? or that saints and angels eat and drink? No, but to help us to
conceive of them as we are able, and to use these borrowed phrases as a glass,
in which we must see the things themselves imperfectly represented, till we
come to an immediate and perfect sight. Besides showing how heavenly
contemplation may be assisted by sensible objects, this chapter will also show
how it may be preserved from a wandering heart.
First. In order that heavenly contemplation may be
ASSISTED BY SENSIBLE OBJECTS, let me only advise to draw strong suppositions
from sense, and to compare the objects of sense with the objects of faith.
1. For the helping of thy affections in heavenly
contemplation, draw as strong suppositions as possible from thy senses.
Think on the joys above, as boldly as Scripture hath expressed them. Bring down
thy conceptions to the reach of sense. Both love and joy are promoted by
familiar acquaintance. When we attempt to think of God and glory, without the
Scripture's manner of representing them, we are lost, and have nothing to fix
our thoughts upon; we set them so far from us, that our thoughts are strange,
and we are ready to say, what is above us is nothing to us. To conceive of God
and glory only as above our conception, will beget but little love; or above
our love, will produce little joy. Therefore put Christ no farther from you
than he hath put himself, lest the divine nature be again inaccessible. Think
of Christ as in our own glorified nature. Think of glorified saints as men made
perfect. Suppose thyself a companion with John, in his survey of the New
Jerusalem, and viewing the thrones, the majesty, the heavenly hosts, the
shining splendor which he saw. Suppose thyself his fellow-traveller into the
celestial kingdom, and that thou hadst seen all the saints in their white
robes, with "palms in their hands;" and that thou hadst heard those "songs of
Moses and of the Lamb." If thou hadst really seen and heard these things, in
what a rapture wouldst thou have been! And the more seriously thou puttest this
supposition to thyself, the more will thy meditation elevate thy heart. Do not,
like the Papists, draw them in pictures! but get the liveliest picture of them
in thy mind that thou possibly canst, by contemplating the Scripture account of
them, till thou canst say, "Methinks I see a glimpse of glory! Methinks I hear
the shouts of joy and praise, and even stand by Abraham and David, Peter and
Paul, and other triumphant souls! Methinks I even see the Son of God appearing
in the clouds, and the world standing at his bar to receive their doom; and
hear him say, 'Come, ye blessed of my Father;' and see them go rejoicing into
the joy of their Lord! My very dreams of these things have sometimes greatly
affected me; and should not these just suppositions much more affect me? What
if I had seen, with Paul, those 'unutterable things?' Or, with Stephen, had
seen 'heaven opened, and Christ sitting at the right hand of God?' Surely that
one sight was worth his storm of stones. What if I had seen, as Micaiah did,
'the Lord sitting upon his throne, and all the host of heaven standing on his
right hand and on his left?' Such things did these men of God see; and I shall
shortly see far more than ever they saw, till they were loosed from the flesh,
as I must be." Thus you see how it excites our affections in this heavenly
work, if we make strong and familiar suppositions from our bodily senses,
concerning the state of blessedness, as the Spirit hath in condescending
language expressed it.
2. The other way in which our senses may promote this heavenly
work, is by comparing the objects of sense with the objects of faith. As
for instance: You may strongly argue with your heart from the corrupt delights
of sensual men to the joys above. Think with thy self, "Is it such a delight to
a sinner to do wickedly? and will it not be delightful indeed to live with God?
Hath the drunkard such delight in his cups, that the fears of damnation will
not make him forsake them? Will the licentious man rather part with his credit,
estate and salvation, than with his brutish delights? If the way to hell can
afford such pleasure, what then are the pleasures of the saints in heaven! If
the covetous man hath so much pleasure in his wealth, and the ambitious man in
places of power and titles of honor, what then have the saints in everlasting
treasures, and in heavenly honors, where we shall be set above principalities
and powers, and be made the glorious spouse of Christ! How delightfully will
the voluptuous follow their recreations from morning till night, or sit at
their cards and dice nights and days together! O the delight we shall have,
when we come to our rest, in beholding the face of the living God, and in
singing forth praises unto him and the Lamb!"
Compare also the delights above with the lawful and moderate
delights of sense. Think with thyself, "How sweet is food to my taste when I am
hungry; especially if it be, as Isaac said, 'such as I love,' which my
temperance and appetite incline to? What delight, then, must my soul have in
feeding upon 'Christ, the living bread,' and in 'eating with him at his table
in his kingdom!' Was a mess of pottage so sweet to Esau in his hunger, that he
would buy it at so dear a rate as his birthright? How highly, then, should I
value this never-perishing food! How pleasant is drink in the extremity of
thirst; scarcely to be expressed; enough to make the 'strength of Samson
revive!' O how delightful will it be to my soul to drink of that 'fountain of
living water, which whoso drinketh shall thirst no more!' How delightful are
grateful odors to the smell; or music to the ear; or beautiful sights to the
eye! what fragrance, then, hath 'the precious ointment which is poured on the
head' of our glorified Savior, and which must be poured on the head of all his
saints, and will fill all heaven with its odor! How pleasing will be those real
beauties above! How glorious the 'building not made with hands,' the house that
God himself dwells in, the walks and prospects in 'the city of God,' and the celestial
paradise!"
Compare, also, the delights above with those we find in
natural knowledge. These are far beyond the delights of sense; but how
much farther are the delights of heaven! Think, then, "can an Archimedes be so
taken up with his mathematical invention, that the threats of death cannot
disengage him, but he will die in the midst of his contemplations? Should not I
be much more taken up with the delights of glory, and die with these
contemplations fresh upon my soul; especially when my death will perfect my
delights, while those of Archimedes die with him? What exquisite pleasure is it
to dive into the secrets of nature, and find out the mysteries of arts and
sciences; especially if we make a new discovery in any one of them! What high
delights are there, then, in the knowledge of God and Christ! If the face of
human learning be so beautiful as to make sensual pleasures appear base and
brutish, how beautiful, then, is the face of God! When we meet with some choice
book, how could we read it day and night, almost forgetful of meat, drink, or
sleep! What delights are there, then, at God's right hand, where we shall know
in a moment all that is to be known!"
Compare, also, the delights above with the delights of morality
and of the natural affections. What delight had many sober heathen in
the rules and practice of moral duty, so that they took him alone for an honest
man who did well through the love of virtue, and not merely for fear of
punishment; yea, so much valued was this moral virtue, that they thought a
man's chief happiness consisted in it! Think, then, "What excellency will there
be in our heavenly perfection, and in that uncreated perfection of God which we
shall behold! what sweetness is there in the exercise of natural love, whether
to children, parents, yoke-fellows, or intimate friends! Does David say of
Jonathan, 'Thy love to me was wonderful, passing the love of women!' Did the
'soul of Jonathan cleave to David?' Had Christ himself one 'disciple whom he
especially loved, and who was wont to lean on his breast?' If, then, the
delights of close and cordial friendship be so great, what delight shall we
have in the friendship of the Most High, and in the dearest love of the saints!
Surely this will be a stricter friendship than these, more lovely and desirable
friends than ever the sun beheld; and both our affections to our Father and
Savior, and especially theirs to us, will be such as we never knew here. If one
angel could destroy a host, the affections of spirits must also be proportionably
stronger, so that we shall then love a thousand times more ardently than we can
now. As all the attributes and works of God are incomprehensible, so is this of
love: he will love us infinitely beyond our most perfect love to Him. What,
then, will there be in this mutual love!"
Compare also the excellencies of heaven with those glorious works
of creation which our eyes now behold. What wisdom, power and goodness are
manifested therein! How does the majesty of the Creator shine in this fabric of
the world! "His works are great, sought out of all them that have pleasure
therein." What divine skill in forming the bodies of men or beasts! What
excellency in every plant! What beauty in flowers! What variety and usefulness
in herbs, plants, fruits and minerals! What wonders are contained in the earth
and its inhabitants; the ocean of waters, with its motions and dimensions; and
the constant succession of spring and autumn, of summer and winter! Think,
then, "If these things, which are but servants to sinful man, are so full of
mysterious worth, what is that place where God himself dwells, and which is
prepared for just men made perfect with Christ! What glory is there in the
least of yonder stars! What a vast resplendent body is yonder moon, and every
planet! What an inconceivable glory has the sun! But all this is nothing to the
glory of heaven. Yonder sun must there be laid aside as useless. Yonder sun is
but darkness to the lustre of my Father's house. I shall myself be as glorious
as that sun. This whole earth is but my Father's footstool. This thunder is
nothing to his dreadful voice. These winds are nothing to the breath of his
mouth. If the 'sending rain, and making the sun to rise on the just and on the
unjust,' be so wonderful, how much more wonderful and glorious will that Sun be
which must shine on none but saints and angels?"
Compare also the enjoyments above with the wonders of
Providence in the church and the world. Would it not be an astonishing
sight to see "the sea stand as a wall on the right hand and on the left, and
the dry land appear in the midst, and the people of Israel pass safely through,
and Pharaoh and his host drowned?" or to have seen the ten plagues of Egypt? or
the rock gushing forth streams? or manna and quails rained from heaven? or the
earth opening and swallowing up the wicked? But we shall see far greater things
than these; not only sights more wonderful, but more delightful! there shall be
no blood, nor wrath, intermingled; nor shall we cry out, as the men of
Beth-shemesh, "Who is able to stand before this holy Lord God?" How astonishing
to see the sun stand still in the firmament, or "the dial of Ahaz go back ten
degrees!" But we shall see when there shall be no sun; or rather shall behold
for ever a Sun of infinitely greater brightness. What a life should we have, if
we could have drought or rain at our prayers; or have fire from heaven to
destroy our enemies, as Elisha; or miraculously cure diseases, and speak all
languages, as the apostles! Alas, these are nothing to the wonders we shall see
and possess with God; and all of them wonders of goodness and love! We shall
ourselves be the subjects of more wonderful mercies than any of these. Jonah
was raised but from a three days' burial in the belly of a fish; but we shall
be raised from many years' decay and dust; and that dust exalted to the glory
of the sun; and that glory perpetuated through eternity. Surely, if we observe
but common providences, as the motions of the sun; the tides of the sea; the
standing of the earth; the watering it with rain, as a garden; the keeping in
order a wicked, confused world; with many others, they are all admirable. But
what are these to the Sion of God, the vision of the divine Majesty, and the
order of the heavenly host?
Add to these, those particular providences which thou hast thyself
enjoyed and recorded through thy life, and compare them with the mercies thou
shalt have above. Look over the mercies of thy youth and riper age, of thy
prosperity and adversity, of thy several places and relations; are they not
excellent and innumerable, rich and engaging? How sweet was it to thee, when
God resolved thy doubts; scattered thy fears; prevented the inconveniences into
which thy own counsel would have cast thee; eased thy pains; healed thy
sickness; and raised thee up, as from death and the grave! Think, then, "Are
all these so sweet and precious, that without them my life would have been a
perpetual misery? Hath his providence on earth lifted me so high, 'and his
gentleness made me so great?' How sweet, then, will his glorious presence be!
How high will his eternal love exalt me! And how great shall I be made in
communion with his greatness! If my pilgrimage and warfare have such mercies,
what shall I find in my home and in my triumph? If God communicates so much to
me while I remain a sinner, what will he bestow when I am a perfected saint! If
I have had so much at such a distance from him, what shall I have in his
immediate presence, where I shall ever stand before his throne!"
Compare the joys above with the comforts thou hast here
received in ordinances. Has not the Bible been to thee as an open
fountain, flowing with comforts day and night? What suitable promises have come
into thy mind; so that, with David, thou mayst say, "Unless thy law had been my
delight, I should then have perished in mine affliction!" Think, then, "If his
word be so full of consolation, what overflowing springs shall we find in God
himself! If his letters are so comfortable, what will the glory of his presence
be! If the promise is so sweet, what will the performance be! If the testament
of our Lord, and our charter for the kingdom, be so comfortable, what will be
our possession of the kingdom itself!"
Think farther, "What delights have I also found in the word
preached! When I have sat under a heavenly, heart-searching teacher, how has my
heart been warmed! Methinks I have felt myself almost in heaven. How often have
I gone to the congregation, troubled in spirit, and returned joyful! How often
have I gone doubting, and God hath sent me home persuaded of his love in
Christ! What cordials have I met with to animate me in every conflict! If the
face of Moses shine so gloriously, what glory is there in the face of God! If
'the feet of them that publish peace, that bring good tidings of salvation, be
beautiful,' how beautiful is the face of the Prince of Peace! If this treasure
be so precious in earthen vessels, what is that treasure laid up in heaven!
Blessed are the eyes that see what is seen there, and the ears that hear the
things that are heard there. There shall I hear Elijah, Isaiah, Jeremiah, John,
Peter, Paul; not preaching to gainsayers, in imprisonment, persecution and
reproach; but triumphing in the praises of him who hath raised them to honor
and glory."
Think also, "What joy is it to have access and acceptance in
prayer; that I may always go to God, and open my case, and unbosom my soul to
him, as to my most faithful friend! but it will be a more unspeakable joy, when
I shall receive all blessings without asking, and all my necessities and
miseries will be removed, and when God himself will be the portion and
inheritance of my soul."
As for the Lord's supper, "What a privilege is it to be
admitted to sit at his table, to have his covenant sealed to me there! But all
the life and comfort there, is to assure me of the comforts hereafter. O the
difference between the last supper of Christ on earth, and the marriage supper
of the Lamb at the great day! Then his room will be the glorious heavens; his
attendants, all the hosts of angels and saints: no Judas, no unfurnished guest
comes there; but the humble believers must sit down by them, and their feast
will be their mutual loving and rejoicing."
Concerning the communion of saints, think with thyself, "What
a pleasure is it to live with intelligent and heavenly Christians! David says
of such, they were 'all his delight.' O what a delightful society, then, shall
I have above! Had I but seen Job on the dunghill, what a mirror of patience!
and what will it be to see him in glory! How delightful to have heard Paul and
Silas singing in the stocks! how much more to hear them sing praises in heaven!
What melody did David make on his harp! but how much more melodious to hear
that sweet singer in the heavenly choir! What would I have given for an hour's
free converse with Paul, when he was just come down from the third heaven! But
I must shortly see those things myself, and possess what I see."
Once more, think of praising God in concert with his saints:
"What if I had been in the place of those shepherds who saw and heard the
heavenly host singing, 'Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good
will towards men!" But I shall see and hear more glorious things. How blessed
should I have thought myself, had I heard Christ in his thanksgivings to his
Father! How much more, when I shall hear him pronounce me blessed! If there was
such joy at bringing back the ark, or at rebuilding the temple; what will there
be in the New Jerusalem! If the earth rent when the people rejoiced at
Solomon's coronation; what a joyful shout will there be at the appearing of the
King of the church! If, 'when the foundations of the earth were laid, the
morning stars sang together, and all the sons of God shouted for joy;' what a
joyful song will there be, when the world of glory is both founded and
finished, when the top-stone is laid, and when 'the holy city is adorned as the
bride, the Lamb's wife!'"
Compare the joys thou shalt have in heaven with what the
saints have found in the way to it, and in the foretastes of it. When did
God ever reveal the least of himself to any of his saints, but the joy of their
hearts corresponded to the revelation? In what an ecstasy was Peter on the
mount of transfiguration! "Master," says he, "it is good for us to be here: let
us make three tabernacles; one for thee, and one for Moses, and one for Elias."
As if he had said, "O let us not go down again to yonder persecuting rabble;
let us not return to our mean and suffering state. Is it not better to stay
here, now we are here? Is not here better company and sweeter pleasure?" How
was Paul lifted up with what he saw! How did the face of Moses shine when he
had been talking with God! These were all extraordinary foretastes; but little
to the full beatific vision. How often have we read and heard of dying saints
who have been full of joy; and when their bodies have felt the extremity of
sickness and pain, have had so much of heaven in their spirits that their joy
has far exceeded their sorrows! If a spark of this fire be so glorious even amidst
the sea of adversity; what then is glory itself! O the joy that the martyrs
have felt in the flames! They were flesh and blood, as well as we; it must
therefore be some excellent thing that filled their spirits with joy while
their bodies were burning. Think, reader, in thy meditations, "Sure it must be
some wonderful foretaste of glory that made the flames of fire easy, and the
king of terrors welcome. What then is glory itself! What a blessed rest, when
the thoughts of it made Paul desire to depart and be with Christ; and make the
saints never think themselves well till they are dead! Shall Saunders embrace
the stake, and cry, 'Welcome, cross!' And shall I not more delightfully embrace
my blessedness, and cry, 'Welcome, crown?' Shall Bradford kiss the fagot, and
shall I not kiss the Savior? Shall another poor martyr rejoice to have her foot
in the same hole of the stocks in which Mr. Philpot's had been before her? And
shall not I rejoice that my soul shall live in the same place of glory where
Christ and his apostles are gone before me? Shall fire and fagot, prisons and
banishment, cruel mockings and scourgings, be more welcome to others than
Christ and glory to me? God forbid!'"
Compare the glory of the heavenly kingdom with the glory of
the church on earth, and of Christ in his state of humiliation. If Christ's
suffering in the room of sinners had such excellency, what is Christ at his
Father's right hand! If the church under her sins and enemies have so much
beauty, what will she have at the marriage of the Lamb! How wonderful was the
Son of God in the form of a servant! When he is born, a new star must appear,
and conduct the strangers to worship him in a manger, heavenly hosts with their
songs must celebrate his nativity; while a child, he must dispute with doctors;
when he enters upon his office, he turns water into wine, feeds thousands with
a few loaves and fishes, cleanses the lepers, heals the sick, restores the
lame, gives sight to the blind, and raises the dead. How wonderful, then, is
his celestial glory! If there be such cutting down of boughs, and spreading of
garments, and crying Hosanna, for one that comes into Jerusalem riding on an
ass; what will there be when he comes with his angels in his glory! If they had
heard him "preach the Gospel of the kingdom," confess, "Never man spake like
this man;" they, then, that behold his majesty in his kingdom will say, "There
was never glory like this glory." If, when his enemies came to apprehend him,
they fell to the ground; if, when he is dying, the earth quakes, the veil of
the temple is rent, the sun is eclipsed, the dead bodies of the saints arise,
and the standers-by acknowledge, "truly this was the Son of God;" O what a day
will it be when the dead must all arise and stand before him! when he "will
once shake, not the earth only, but the heavens also!: when this sun shall be
taken out of the firmament, and be everlastingly darkened with his glory! and
when every tongue shall confess him to be the Lord and King! If, when he rose
again, death and the grave lost their power; if angels must "roll away the
stone," terrify the keepers till they are "as dead men," and send the tidings
to his disciples; if he ascend to heaven in their sight; of what power,
dominion and glory is he now possessed, and which we must for ever possess with
him! When he is gone, can a few poor fishermen and tent-makers cure the lame,
blind and sick, open prisons, destroy the disobedient, raise the dead, and
astonish their adversaries? what a world will that be, where every one can do
greater works than these! If the preaching of the Gospel be accompanied with
such power as to discover the secrets of the heart, humble the proud sinner,
and make the most obdurate tremble; if it can make men burn their books, sell
their lands, and bring in the price and lay it down at the preacher's feet; if
it can convert thousands, and turn the world upside down; if its doctrine, from
the prisoner at the bar, can make the judge on the bench tremble; if Christ and
his saints have this power and honor in the day of their abasement, and in the
time appointed for their suffering and disgrace, what then will they have in
their absolute dominion and full advancement in their kingdom of glory!
Compare the glorious change thou shalt have at last, with the
gracious change which the Spirit hath here wrought on thy heart. There is
not the smallest sincere grace in thee, but is of greater worth than the riches
of the Indies; not a hearty desire after Christ, but is more to be valued than
the kingdoms of the world. A renewed nature is the very image of God; Christ
dwelling in us, and the Spirit of God abiding in us; it is a beam from the face
of God; the seed of God remaining in us; the only inherent beauty of the
rational soul: it ennobles man above all nobility; fits him to understand his
Maker's pleasure, do his will, and receive his glory. If this grain of
mustard-seed be so precious, what is "the tree of life in the midst of the
paradise of God!" If a spark of life, which will but strive against
corruptions, and flame out a few desires and groans, be of so much worth, how
glorious then is the fountain of this life! If we are said to be like God when
we are pressed down with a body of sin; surely we shall be much more like God
when we have no such thing as sin within us. Is the desire after, and love of
heaven, so excellent; what then is the thing itself? Is our joy in foreseeing
and believing so sweet; what will be the joy of full possession? How glad is a
Christian when he feels his heart begin to melt, and be dissolved with the
thoughts of sinful unkindness! Even this sorrow yields him joy. O what then
will it be, when we shall know, and love, and rejoice, and praise in the
highest perfection! Thine with thyself, "What a change was it to be taken from
that state wherein I was born, and in which I was riveted by custom, when
thousands of sins lay against me; and if I had so died, I have been damned for
ever! What an astonishing change, to be justified from all these enormous
crimes, and freed from all these fearful plagues, and made an heir of heaven!
How often, when I have thought of my regeneration, have I cried out, O blessed
day! and blessed be the Lord that ever I saw it! How, then, shall I cry out in
heaven, O blessed eternity! and blessed be the Lord that brought me to it! Did
the angels of God rejoice to see my conversion? surely they will congratulate
my felicity in my salvation. Grace is but a spark raked up in the ashes,
covered with flesh from the sight of the world, and sometimes covered with
corruption from my own sight; but my everlasting glory will not be so clouded,
nor my light be 'under a bushel, but upon a hill,' even upon mount Sion, the
mount of God."
Once more, compare the joys which thou shalt have above, with
those foretastes of it which the Spirit hath given thee here. Hath not
God sometimes revealed himself extraordinarily to thy soul, and let a drop of
glory fall upon it? Hast thou not been ready to say, "O that it might be thus
with my soul continually!" Didst thou never cry out with the martyr, after thy
long and mournful expectations, "He is come! he is come!" Didst thou never,
under a lively sermon of heaven, or in thy retired contemplations on that
blessed state, perceive thy drooping spirits revive, and thy dejected heart
lift up thy head, and the light of heaven dawn on thy soul? Think with thyself,
"What is this earnest to the full inheritance? Alas, all this light, that so
amazeth and rejoiceth me, is but a candle lighted from heaven to lead me
thither through this world of darkness! If some godly men have been overwhelmed
with joy till they have cried out, 'Hold, Lord, stay thy hand; I can bear no
more!' what then will be my joys in heaven, when my soul shall be so capable of
seeing and enjoying God, that though the light be ten thousand times greater
than the sun, yet my eyes shall be able for ever to behold it!: Or if thou hast
not yet felt these sweet foretastes, (for every believer hath not felt them,)
then make use of such delights as thou hast felt, in order the better to discern
what thou shalt hereafter feel.
Secondly. I am now to show how heavenly contemplation
may be PRESERVED FROM A WANDERING HEART. Our chief work here is to discover the
danger, and that will direct to the fittest remedy. The heart will prove the
greatest hinderance in this heavenly employment; either, by backwardness to
it;--or, by trifling in it;--or by frequent excursions to other objects;--or, by
abruptly ending the work before it is well begun. As you value the comfort of
this work, these dangerous evils must be faithfully resisted.
1. Thou wilt find thy heart as backward to this, I
think, as to any work in the world. O what excuses will it make! What evasions
will it find out! What delays and demurs, when it is ever so much convinced!
Either it will question whether it be a duty or not; or if it be so to others,
whether to thyself. It will tell thee, "This is a work for ministers that have
nothing else to study; or, for persons that have more leisure than thou hast."
If thou be a minister, it will tell thee, "This is the duty of the people; it
is enough for thee to meditate for their instruction, and let them meditate on
what they have heard." As if it was thy duty only to cook their meat and serve
it up, and they alone must eat it, digest it, and live upon it. If all this
will not do, thy heart will tell thee of other business, or set thee upon some
other duty; for it had rather go to any duty than this. Perhaps it will tell
thee, "Other duties are greater, and therefore this must give place to them,
because thou hast no time for both. Public business is more important; to study
and preach for the saving of souls must be preferred before these private
contemplations." As if thou hadst not time to care for thy own salvation, for
looking after that of others; or thy charity to others were so great, that it
obliges thee to neglect thy own eternal welfare; or as if there was any better
way to fit us to be useful to others, than making this proof of our doctrine
ourselves. Certainly heaven is the best fire to light our candle at, and the
best book for a preacher to study; and if we would be persuaded to study that
more, the church would be provided with more heavenly lights; and when our
studies are divine and our spirits divine, our preaching will also be divine, and
we may be called divines indeed. Or if thy heart will have nothing to say
against the work, it will trifle away the time in delays, and promise this day
and the next, but still keep off from the business. Or it will give thee a flat
denial, and oppose its own unwillingness to thy reason. all this I speak of the
heart, so far as it is still carnal; for I know, so far as it is spiritual, it
will judge this the sweetest work in the world.
What is now to be done? Wilt thou do it if I tell thee?
Wouldst thou not say in a like case, "What should I do with a servant that will
not work, or with a horse that will not travel? Shall I keep them to look at?"
Then faithfully deal thus with thy heart; persuade it to the work, take no
denial, chide it for its backwardness, use violence with it. Hast thou no
command of thy own thoughts? Is not the subject of thy meditations a matter of
choice, especially under the guidance of thy judgment? Surely God gave thee,
with thy new nature, some power to govern thy thoughts. Art thou again become a
slave to thy depraved nature? Resume thy authority. Call in the Spirit of
Christ to thine assistance, who is never backward to so good a work, nor will
deny his help in so just a cause. Say to him, "Lord, thou gavest my reason the
command of my thoughts and affections; the authority I have received over them
is from thee; and now, behold, they refuse to obey thine authority. Thou
commandest me to set them to the work of heavenly meditation, but they rebel
and stubbornly refuse the duty. Wilt thou not assist me to exercise that
authority which thou hast given me? O send down thy Spirit, that I may enforce
thy commands, and effectually compel them to obey thy will!: Thus thou shalt
see thy heart will submit, its resistance be overcome, and its backwardness be
turned into cheerful compliance.
2. Thy heart will also be likely to betray thee by trifling,
when it should be effectually meditating. Perhaps, when thou hast an hour for
meditation, the time will be spent before thy heart will be serious. This doing
of duty as if we did it not, ruins as many as the omission of it. Here let
thine eye be always upon thy heart. Look not so much to the time it spends in
the duty, as to the quantity and quality of the work that is done. You can tell
by his work, whether a servant has been diligent. Ask yourself, "What
affections have yet been exercised? How much nearer am I to heaven?" Think not,
since thy heart is so trifling, it is better to let it alone: for, by this
means thou wilt certainly banish all spiritual obedience; because the best
hearts, being but sanctified in part, will resist, so far as they are carnal.
But rather consider well the corruptions of thy nature; and that its sinful
indispositions will not supersede the commands of God; nor one sin excuse
another; and that God has appointed means to excite our affections. This
self-reasoning, self-considering duty of heavenly meditation, is the most
effective means both to excite and increase love. Therefore neglect not the
duty till thou feelest thy love constrain thee, any more than thou wouldst stay
from the fire till thou feelest thyself warm; but engage in the work till love
is excited, and then love will constrain thee to further duty.
3. Thy heart will also be making excursions from thy heavenly
meditation to other objects. It will be turning aside, like a careless servant,
to talk with every one that passes by. When there should be nothing in thy mind
but heaven, it will be thinking of thy calling, or thy afflictions, or of every
bird, or tree, or place thou seest. The cure is here the same as before: use
watchfulness and violence. Say to thy heart, "What! did I come hither to think
of my worldly business, of persons, places, news or vanity, or of any thing but
heaven, be it ever so good? 'Canst thou not watch one hour?' Wouldst thou leave
this world and dwell for ever with Christ in heaven, and not leave it one hour
to dwell with Christ in meditation? 'Is this thy love to thy friend?' Dost thou
love Christ, and the place of thy eternal, blessed abode, no more than this?"
If the ravening fowls of wandering thoughts devour the meditations intended for
heaven, they devour the life and joy of thy thoughts; therefore drive them away
from thy sacrifice, and strictly keep thy heart to the work.
4. Abruptly ending thy meditation before it is well
begun, is another way in which thy heart will deceive thee. Thou mayest easily
perceive this in other duties. In secret prayer, is not thy heart urging thee
to cut it short, and frequently making a motion to have done? So in heavenly
contemplation, thy heart will be weary of the work, and will stop thy heavenly
walk before thou art well warm. But charge it in the name of God to stay, and
not do so great a work by halves. Say to it, "Foolish heart! if thou beg a
while, and goest away before thou hast thine alms, is not thy begging a lost
labor? If thou stoppest before the end of thy journey, is not thy travel lost?
Thou camest hither in hope to have a sight of the glory which thou must
inherit; and wilt thou stop when thou art almost at the top of the hill, and
turn back before thou hast taken thy survey? Thou camest hither in hope to
speak with God; and wilt thou go before thou hast seen him? Thou camest to
bathe thyself in the streams of consolation, and to that end didst unclothe
thyself of thy earthly thoughts; and wilt thou only touch the bank and return?
Thou camest to 'spy out the land of promise;' go not back without 'one cluster
of grapes to show thy brethren,' for their encouragement. Let them see that
thou hast tasted of the wine by the gladness of thy heart; and that thou hast
been anointed with the oil, by the cheerfulness of thy countenance; and hast
fed of the milk and honey, by the mildness of thy disposition and the sweetness
of thy conversation. This heavenly fire would melt thy frozen heart, and refine
and spiritualize it; but it must have time to operate." Thus pursue the work
till something be done, till thy graces be in exercise, thy affections raised,
and thy soul refreshed with the delights above; or, if thou canst not attain
these ends at once, be the more earnest at another time. "Blessed is that
servant, whom his Lord, when he cometh, shall find so doing."